I was up early today and immediately started cleaning. I hate our kitchen, I want new counter tops and a new sink. The one we have is old and it just doesn't sparkle anymore, no matter how hard I scrub. I decided it was time to start looking at what's new in sinks since I think it's time to get a new one.

I clean normally but today I think I started early because I am worried about a few people i my life and I've been trying to occupy my mind with other things.

I hate worrying about other people but of course, it's in my nature. I guess we all worry about others on some level. My mother in law is facing a real possibility of having breast cancer. She goes for an MRI on February 9th, so of course that date hangs over me as much as it hangs over her.

Zyon has been sick off and on for over a week now. So much has gone on in January with him. We both decided to change our lifestyle - eating healthy and exercising daily. I lost 8 pounds in January, he lost 22! I think between the change in eating habits, exercising (and pushing himself a bit) probably made his body scream What the hell! Then he got an ear infection. He was on antibiotics and had an adverse reaction to them - made his stomach upset (if ya know what I mean) and he went to the doctor last Thursday. Things got better but then last night he felt bad again. The man fell asleep as soon as he got home and sat on the sofa - that never happens! He said he was going to go back to the doctor today - he better.

Olivia was up last night - she had a headache and she sounded stuffed up, gawd I hope she's not getting sick!

I've been trying to occupy my thoughts with other things but it's tough. I just want those around me, those I care about and love to be alright - of course! I hate when the balance is off - that's only allowed for me. I can be unbalanced, no one else!