I thought the handle 'Unbalanced' Libra was clever because well, Libras are supposed to be balanced and I am far from it. I do strive for balance and I do try my best to find a rhythm/routine to keep things on track.

However, this month has thrown me for a loop. I've thrown my old routine out the window and have tried to find some sort of semblance in a new routine. I'm still trying and it's freaking hard. My days used to be filled with lots and lots of coffee and work, work, work. I'd spend from 6:30 am until 8-9 pm working. Now, I don't mean straight through because well, I do have other things that need to be tended to, like kids, laundry, housework, etc. This new year brought on a new realization - I don't ever have any time set aside for ME. I don't mean relaxing though, I mean, to keep myself healthy - I had forgotten all about exercise.

So now, instead of getting up and working non stop, I get up, do my housework while the kids are just waking up, get them fed, get Olivia off to school and then I take time to exercise. Sure, some mornings, like this morning, I'll sit down and blog a bit but I won't stay here at this desk long. In fact, those little shits are up right now - it's too early! I still need that 30 - 40 minutes of morning quiet time and well, obviously today I didn't get it.

I take Dante to pre-school 2 days a week and on those 2 days I just stay at his school (the YMCA) and use the gym - yes, for 2 hours I exercise, with my friends Shannon and Mike. The rest of the week I use my treadmill here at home. I have been averaging 4-6 miles a day on the treadmill, burning anywhere from 600 - 900 calories and I am eating healthier but still, after 22 days, I see no change in my body and I've only lost between 5 - 7 pounds.

It's very frustrating and the idea of taking something like Lipovox is becoming more and more appealing. My husband has lost about 10 pounds already. We both have a goal of a 40 pound weight loss by the time we go to Walt Disney World at the end of April.
I MUST BEAT HIM!

Not starting work until close to 11 am is weird for me but I need to get used to this new routine because I know I need to put myself first.